Six hours into the day's ride, my rear tire flatted. I never should have left Maine without new tires. I patched the inner tube but could not find the cause. Sure enough, the tire went flat again in less than five miles as the sun sank lower. There I was on the side of the road with the rear wheel off the bike and the tire in my hands. I squeezed every inch of it to find the cause, the tears in my eyes and the silent "Why?" screaming in my head making the task that much harder. . . .
How many times in my life have I patched bicycle tires on the side of a road? As readers of this journal know, riding a bicycle and being transgender are intimately related in my life. If not for the former, I might not have coped with the latter during the decades it took me approach and finally succeed at transition. I learned to be visible and assertive in my lane position on a bicycle, and those skills transferred directly to being visible and assertive when I transitioned at the U.S. Embassy in Bucharest, Romania, in 2010-11. Experiencing two flats in a row that day by Lake Koocanusa reminded me that our life journeys, whether on a bicycle or in asserting gender identity, remain unpredictable even after we have accumulated years of life experience.
Covid and Trump. It is ironic that without the latter's leadership on the former, I never would have spent the summer of 2020 quite the way I did, on two wheels across 4000 miles of the northern US where Trump flags wave.
All through the winter of 2019-20, I had planned a cross-country bike-packing journey. Given that I live in northern Maine, I had designed a route across Ontario and Quebec that crossed back into the US at Michigan. From there I had planned to cross Michigan's Upper Peninsula and continue across the Northern Tier states to Anacortes, WA.
Then Covid hit. The world as we know it went away. The Canadian border closed, and even Adventure Cycling urged its members to stay home for the common public health good. An unabashed northeast progressive, I complied and abandoned my plans. Instead, I set out on May 31 to bike only around the state of Maine. At no point would I be further than a few hundred miles from home. I told friends this was my Bike Around Maine or BAM, a wry allusion to the Soviet Union's Baikal-Amur Mainline railroad. I found myself watching YouTube videos of the controversial, tragically naive American folk singer Dean Reed playing his guitar and singing This Train on top of a BAM railroad car in the 1970s.
That was my reduced plan, but a funny thing happened as I passed through Brunswick, ME. I met up with a bike-packing friend who urged me to reconsider. After all, she said, "What could be more socially distant than riding solo on a bicycle 6-8 hours/day and then camping at night?"
I mulled that over for several days as I continued north to the Canadian border that I could not cross. I wasn't convinced at first, but the more I thought of the Trump administration's leadership in confronting Covid, the more I thought my friend had a point. Infection rates in the upper Midwest were low as we headed into summer. I might not be able to cross Canada, but I could strap Woodswoman II on the back of my car, drive to Michigan, and start riding west from there1.
If there had been true national Covid leadership in Washington, I would have stayed home for the public good. With no national policy, however, I understood that the situation would become much worse in the fall and winter. The summer, on the other hand, still offered a more-or-less virus free route to the West Coast. I seized my chance.
|Crossing the Cascades|
People were kind. Camp hosts found a spot for me at campgrounds that were full. One campground host in Montana brought me a home cooked dinner. A retired Lutheran minister drove over a hundred miles to bring me a new front tire when I needed one.
In Omak, WA, I took a day off to recover from the heat. I may have been the only person in that town to tune in to the Democratic National Convention to listen to Joe Biden's acceptance speech. Only after I had crossed the Cascades did the Trump/Pence flags thin out to be replaced by Biden/Harris 2020 yard signs, a sure sign that I was nearing my journey's end. I dipped Woodswoman's front wheel into the waters of Puget Sound at Anacortes, WA, on August 25.
Like most progressive Democrats, I had hoped for a crushing repudiation of Trump at the polls on November 3, but I knew better. I had seen and felt the adulation shown to him through most of the rural northern Midwest and also in my rural part of Maine's 2nd Congressional District. When the race was called for Joe Biden on November 7, I'm certain I was the only person in my small town to go out on her porch and bang a pot in celebration.
Come January 20, we will have a national public health policy. I'll do my part. If that means staying close to home for another year, so be it. I long for borders to reopen and to visit friends in Kazakhstan, Romania, Russia, and Uzbekistan. I look forward to other bike-packing adventures. In the meantime I will take solitary winter walks, read my books, and enjoy the beauty of a Maine winter. I will think back on the summer with a smile.
It is ironic that I owe my summer journey to leadership from Trump's Washington. That irony turns to tragedy when I consider that five people in my circle of friends and family have contracted Covid. One has died from it. As memorable as the summer was, I would have preferred true leadership even if meant staying home. In New Brunswick, less than 100 miles away on the other side of a closed border, the battle against Covid has been so successful that life has returned nearly to normal.
But let me return to that day along Lake Koocanusa. Getting control of my tears, I found the culprit that had caused my flats, a small piece of wire that had worked its way through the tire wall. I used eyebrow tweezers to extract it. A half hour later I pulled into a Corps of Engineering campground south of Koocanusa Dam. The first person I saw was a woman with her dog standing outside what turned out to be a school bus turned camper. She invited me to set up my tent next to her bus. She brought me cloths and a basin of warm water with which to wash away my day's accumulation of grime. With the sun now set, she invited me into her bus to warm my dinner on her stove, and we whiled the evening away with tales of our travels. I went to sleep that night with a smile. My new friend had turned my worst cycling day into one of my best.
|Journey's End at Anacortes, WA|
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